My Social Position

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have no other material so I'm going to write about the condition of my social life that put me here in blogger-catharsis. It all has to do with my "friends". I put that in quotation marks because I'm no longer sure who falls under that category. I have divided my friends into two groups, each with its own sub-groups.

The first group, and probably most great in number, is my theatre "friends". These are the fine men and women that I have happily (for the most part) taken part in my school's musical production with. (A handful, coughindiekidcough, actually read this blog) For the past two years I have felt accepted and rejected at the same time by these people. Some you can call phony and cynical, these are more the nodding acquaintances of the group (coughkristencough). As soon as I found myself among the theatre nerds, I subconciously found myself trying to win their approval. I (apparently) certainly wasn't taking drastic measures (hence, subconciously) but I was criticized for it. I was (almost blatantly) shunned by people I thought were friends and in trying to find out why, I came off as too forthcoming or clingy, thus pushing them away further. (Those are my conclusions)

There are three sub-groups of the drama nerds.
Group 1: Talented, Well-known, Leads (In most of the shows) Pretty nice people, easy to get along with.
Group 2: The guys along for the ride. These guys seem like the accidentally showed up for auditions and made it. Fun-loving, good-natured guys who are the easiest to get along with. They don't exactly take the shows seriously, but they certainly make the experience more enjoyable.
Group 3: These guys are in between. Also decent people, but emotionally unstable. In trying to make the transfer from group 2 to group 1, the social scene becomes like business, relationships become acquistions. ::Bleh, you guys think too much::

My other friends are closer, due to the fact that these are the people that I spend the most of my schooldays with. They all happen to be Filipino, it was completely random (so sue me). Because of that I was criticized, as well. (That is why my profile says that I feel my character is under assault.) Each member of the Pnoy group is very different.
The silent but deadly: Mark
The eccentric and fun-loving (to a fault): Lester
The not-so-isolated Azn: Ken
The Samurai: Lindell
These are the ones that share in my anime/manga fandom.

While all these obsvervation were made by myself, the insider, I felt that they were made by an outsider who can see situations clearly without emotions clouding the lens. Well, whatever. This is the center of my social trouble that I'm trying to cure. So I finally got it out.

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